13 September, 2004 - 1:08 a.m.
I should be in bed by now, I have to be up at about 6.30am to get ready for work. I usually go to bed at about 2am so I hate it when I am on an early shift coz I only get a few hours sleep.
Listening to U2, they have a new album out in Nov and a tour coming in 2005, hope I get tickets.
Therapy on tuesday, it is hard at the moment, v.hard as I often don't know how to speak or what to speak about.
Life is a mixture of agony and wonderfulness. Frustrated by the swirling mass of my emotions. That I can go from feeling really terrible to feeling exultant within hours, I wonder who I am, which bits are me?
I find myself being baffled as to what to do with this life I have been given, it's like being given a present but not knowing how it works. I just don't know what I want to do. I have passionate interests in things that I think will last forever and then fade in days, laying discarded and forgotten.
It's not all bad, in fact there is a lot of good but I am just baffled.
