28 May, 2004 - 12:00 a.m.
Feel pretty dismal today. Work was a real effort, I really dragged myself around. I don't know why I feel low really, things just feel bleak and grey.
I had a sleep when I got back from work this afternoon and felt a little bit better when I woke up. Partly I am grumpy because I have to work this weekend and I hate weekends at work, they are so slow and dull. It is probably more the thought of working at the weekend than actually having to go, usually when I get there it is ok and sometimes even reasonable. Generally it depends on who I am working with.
Things feel really painful and I feel really sensitive and like crying would help. This is the bit I hate about being borderline, I hate the terrible pain and the uneasiness.
