24 May, 2004 - 12:29 a.m.
Neckache added itself to the headache today and I feel in pain. Took painkillers again and feel a bit better, but groggy.
I told the other people who are involved in the bullying situation that I can't take it as far as they want to (they want to refuse to work if the bully is there). I said that I will go to work so long as I don't have to work with him. This whole thing is exhausting me and I feel pulled in all directions and like whatever I do I will piss someone off.
In the end I guess I must do what I 'want', this is a novel idea for me as I usually have no idea what I want. I tend to want to do what the last person I spoke to wants to do. I just want to please everybody and I want everybody to like me.
I need to learn what I like and dislike, what my values are and that I am an individual who is allowed to choose wht she wants.
